I’m letting go cold turkey
Erasing the memories that I wanted to create
Only to be sideswiped by deception
With intent
But in reality
Was masked with pride
Projected onto my soul
Of insecurity and mistrust
That no amount of questioning could unravel
The queen of her castle protecting her king
Or is she controlling him
Keeping him away from others
From those who wish a friendly conversation
While her being so afraid of losing him
That she would do anything to keep him as an object
Nothing more and nothing less
And what about him?
The dark angelic counselor
Who puts so much pride in his work
And telling others what to do
That he forgets his own weakness
Wanting only to feed from my honesty
As his energy source
Because deep inside
It makes him stronger like Superman
Knowing that there is someone is weaker than him
And he is just so proud and full of it
He too loves his queen
Under the spell of loves passion and fire
So strong
That is surrounds them both
And if anyone tries to touch it
The get 5th degree burns
And killed by their energy
Trusting only within themselves
Hiding within the cocoon of loves passion
Mistrusting those
WHO DARE to cross their path
Innocent or guilty otherwise
I dont know
If they ever heard the concept
Of passion being like a fire:
When its hot, it will burn
But like an inferno, it can only last so long
And then it will die
Becoming nothing but ashes
Soon that passion and love will fade
Over time and perhaps many lifetimes
The solid base of the pedistal will crack
And soon they will fall
They may think they can control me
Only to make themselves stand strong
Because they feel just as insecure as I
And have confessed the same
For they think even a mere confession as this
Would consider them weak and vulnerable
As they project me through their eyes
Perhaps the good intentions were there
To save my soul and my life
But I don’t see it that way
For when I felt the hands of vampiric energy
Trying to choke me
Trying to make me feel lesser than
The person and human being that I really am
I knew something was affront
And there was true evil and secrets hidden
They thought they could hide it
By pushing themselves on to me
But I saw through it
As I have seen many a time with others
I could’ve pointed out what I really saw
But I knew if I did that
They would think of me more of a fool
No matter how much they begged and pleaded for frankness
Than they think of me now
Probably
They woul’dve said
I was bullshitting and projecting myself
And like me
They wouldn’t be able to face the truth of their actions either
Simply because
That’s what we humans beings do
And it doesnt matter if we are “higher beings” or not
Thats the basic tenant
To have pride in your perfection
Is a sin
And a show of arrogance
That only the most perceptive of beings
Can see through
And are smart enough not to get involved with
The truth hurts
Whether you give it
Or receive
Its up to you to decide
Why the truth has come your way:
To serve as a warning?
To server as a lesson?
Or to control.
In my case,
I believe it was all three
Rolled into one ball of energy
That within was dark and sinister
But on the outside it was covered with a shell
Of light
That turned into a burning flame when it touched the soul
I know that there are others out there
Worse than them
Worse than me
Who have far more sinister plans
Inside their brains
And calculate every single move
Because they have no life
I have no time for that
Because sometimes
I’ll admit
I walk into it accidentally
When my soul decides to be asleep
Or distracted from whats really going on
And when it wakes up
Its a rude awakening
But in the end its all worth it
Because I realize
I never want to encounter the situation again
Nor would I ever want to become
The same people who raped and wounded
My spiritual shell
Perhaps
They will realize
That they came on too strong
And didnt mean to scare me like they did
Perhaps
They will get a hard lesson from someone else
More skilled and qualified than I
To set them straight
And make them face the severe error of their ways
But I do know one thing is for sure
They just lost someone good in their lives
And I know there have been plenty others like me
That have suffered the same consequences.
And I gurantee more will follow
And will become just as blind, sick, and controlled
Before its too late
